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I just can't take it anymore! There are plenty of others in worse situations than mine but living where I live I am left looking in every direction only to find constant reminders of my problem. This issue is leaving me feeling trapped, confined, and suffocated. The solution to this? I need wheels. I live in an area where walking anywhere is impractical even though it's the suburbs. I live along a busy road where you are better off being a part of the ensuing traffic flow than a pedestrian on the sidewalk. All of my friends have cars at this point so anyone without a car for an indefinite period is treated like deadweight and thus neglected. I have constantly busy and forgetful parents that will completely forget about me so I have to wait extended periods to be picked up. This wouldn't be so bad if I had others to share that plight with but I feel singled out when I see lower income kids drive cars. I want to get a job, I want to not have to worry about how long I'll have to wait or if my parents completely forgot about picking me up from school (I have minimum day so the bus is not an option). I just can't take it, I feel closed off and removed and caged and the constant financial setbacks of my family like God is constantly tossing me a big fuck you to me having any feeling of independence in where I go and when I go. I don't even want anything except for that at this point because I just feel so bottled up. I'm sick of not being able to go anywhere, I'm sick of everything being out of reach. I'm sick of having to rely on my parents for so much. I just want to do things on my own, but it keeps looking like that will never happen!
May 2021: I make my return
I don't know how many people even care but I am posting this for those who might be watching and give a damn. I graduate this Spring. Unfortunately, at least for me, due to circumstances I will not be able to immediately move into grad school, so I am going to have to take a gap year. That gives me plenty of time to return to storywriting so starting in May I will make infrequent posts to continue on my 3 concurrent stories starting with a new chapter of ASB
An Update: Silent but not Abandoned
I don't want it to seem like I've abandoned DA. I haven't, but I am veritably swamped. This is now my senior year in college and I am faced with the most rigorous courseload I have ever taken on, a job, and trying to get into a grad school. I stress that, at the very least, I HAVE NOT abandoned my stories. Every night I lay in bed brainstorming and planning out more of each of my current stories. I want to continue them and am inspired to do so and will do so, but not now. Storywriting and drawing (if that isn't completely abandoned as a hobby) are mere hobbies, they have nothing to do with my future career and are just exercising my creativi
I'm not dead
Haven't posted anything in awhile so just letting it be said I'm not dead and I'm not done with DA, I've been working on my stories occasionally but college has me whipped so it's very rarely. Just putting it out there.
New story chapter being released
Just putting it out there that I finished with the 2nd chapter of Washed Up, Claire and Isaac meet some new and one familiar face and begin to form a tribe while also finding a place to settle on the primeval island. I just have to do some revising and editting and it will be released then the 3rd chapter for the reboot of my most popular story: A Strange Beauty will be next and is already underway. I think those who follow the series (if anybody does) will like how I redid the scene where Maria assures Alex that she is not going to leave him.
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It's understandable. I know how you feel